Wednesday, May 28, 2008


just a moment in time
the movie in your mind
put aside the whispers
filter out the doubt
look into my eyes
ignore the muted shout
don't you wish to melt away?
into the golden sun?
don't you want to whisk away,
and have a little fun?
aren't you sick of pain
and fear inside your life
all I know inside of me
I want you as my wife
I'm tired of the race
I'm ill with blank disgrace
I want the world to leave us be
I want the world to set us free
take my hand and smile
you can let those tears fall
I'll make it worth your while
and always give it all
through good and bad
I'll love you
through thick and thin
I'll stay
from the blinking of the sun
to the fading of the day
and in the night
I'll hold youuntil the sun appears
I'll take away your sorrows,
and cast away your fears
so let our love combine us
and let our spirits soar
just take my hand within you
and I'll love you evermore

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Love Story

A boy liked a girl but wanted to make her jealous.
Then one day things went terribly wrong.
The next few weeks were like a very sad song.
He made her jealous on purpose he tried.
When the girl asked, "Do you love me?"
on purpose he lied.
He played with jealousy like it was a game.
Little did he know things would never be the same.
His plan was working but
he had no clue -how wrong things would go,
the damage he would do.
One night she broke down,
feeling very alone.
Just her and the blade,
no one else home.
She dialed his number,
he answered, "Hello"
She told him she loved him and hung up the phone.
He raced to her house just a minute too late.
Found her lying in blood,
her heart had no rate.
Beside her was a note,
in it her confession.
Her love for this boy,
her only obsession.
As he read the note,
he knelt down and cried.
Grabbed her knife,
that night they both died.
She was found in his arms, both of them dead.
Under her note his handwriting said:"I loved her so, she never knew.
All this time
She loved me too."

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

A lost childhood................

Darsheel Safary, the wonder boy who got prominence after success of Tare Zameen Par, is feeling something has been changed in his life at his school. During a press conference when asked about his friends, he said “They’ve changed totally. I only have some friends left… maybe six in all. The rest have all left me. They’re all the time trying to pull me down. They’re a little jealous of me. When I’m passing by in my car, they go ‘Hey Darsheel Darsheel. Photo, photo’. But I’m happy with my six friends.” Then he added I don’t know why my friends have changed. May be because I’ve acted in a movie. “
Like adults, the relationships in childhood also face dynamic motions. Accomplishment with good money should perceptibly affect the relationship among kids also. It’s not the scenario where a kid’s parents get rich because here his parents can change the school but here is the case of kid’s own earning which he even can’t understand. For other students in Darsheel’s class he may be a matter of covetousness but apart from this resentment factor what will happen to Darsheel in over all sense? After getting that kind of fame at that early age, will he be able to ponder on his studies like he used to do before TZP’s offer came to him? Being part of a thriving film means many more offers and that means more money and more recognition and then it’s almost certain that studies will be affected. This is pretty hilarious that almost all the governments all over the world make hue and cry when children are used in a work where manual work is concerned and its called child labor but when it comes to the case of art or acting like area and here it’s seen as a good thing. A young boy can’t work where his physical power is used but he can work at that place and in that field where his mental power or some artistic skills are used. Does populace ever think about these so called artistic kids?

Many times child actors have to give shots where they have to pass through a lot of mental trauma. There are rules to stop child labor as governments think what developed nation forced them to think. A child used in the weaving work because s/he has small and thin figures which work good in the weaving is seen as an exploited child because his parents are poor and they send their child to work at early age but if same poor parents send their kids to work in films then its not understood as child labor.

During 1990, Dilip Ghosh, a FTII graduate, made a documentary on child actors in Hindi cinema called CHILDREN OF THE SILVER SCREEN. The film was screened at film festivals. It explored the blood and tears behind the chubby faces of people who were once famous as child actors but could not make it when they turned adult. Naaz, who was once famous as Baby Naaz (BOOT POLISH) and was said to be charging more than some stars of the time, said in camera that she came back home to parents who fought all the time and forgot to give her a proper meal. She was never allowed to touch a paisa of her earnings and was thrust into adult roles much before she turned eighteen.
Daisy Irani, another famous child star of the Fifties, said that she failed twice in the same class because she could not attend school having to report for shoots at all times of day and night. “My mother took the easy way out - she took me out of school and sent me back to the studios.” Her mother would pinch her hard when she refused to cry in sad scenes. “I was allowed to save money in a piggy bank. But my parents would never allow me to open the bank and find out how much money it had. One day, I opened it secretly and was shocked to find just a few coins at the bottom,” she recalls. The directors spoiled her rotten and she grew into a studio brat who no one could tolerate but were forced to smile at. After marriage and three kids, Irani says she feels sorry for her mother “because she did not know what she was doing to me, and more so, to herself.”

Her kid sister, Honey Irani went through a similar grueling childhood till she married Javed Akhtar and later shifted focus to write stories and scripts for films.

Baby Guddu, a very successful child actor of the eighties, was pushed into films by a father who claimed to be a ‘producer’ and a mother who had starry ambitions for herself that failed to come about. “She is brilliant in studies,” said the mother to this writer in an interview, “but we have put her in films because she is very talented and we allow her to do this purely as a hobby.” Really? Which ‘hobby’ fattens the parents’ bank balance like a career in films do, tell me? What happened to the poor little rich girl no one knows…But we can assume the little girl coming back from school in uniform, dog tired at the end of the day, only to be asked to freshen herself up as she had to report for a night shoot.

Not always kids get easy jobs in the films. Remembering here an incidence mentioned by late Balraj Sahni. He writes that once a film unit took his son Ajay Sahni (Parikshit Sahni) for a small role. Later when he reached there he found that Ajay was made to hang from a high place and he was crying with fear. Obviously Balraj Sahni became very angry and scolded the director and producer for their nonsense cruel behaviour towards a child and immediately took Ajay back to the home.

It was Baby Khushboo who had worked in the film Dard ka Rishta (1982) and she was around 12 years old then and by the year 1985 she had started coming as an adult heroine. Even at that time media used to mention that in some cases Hormonal therapy was working and injections were given to some Baby this and Baby that to make them women, owning fully developed bodies, so that they could start earning big amounts for their families.

Dimple Kapadia was in school when she did Bobby and clearly it was difficult to pursue studies after the bumper success of Bobby.

Rekha had to start working in the films at very young age because she was the only earner in her family. Her first director and hero of the film even managed to take a kiss scene without even informing her and hero had suddenly kissed her. It was a clear case of sexual exploitation but nobody bothered.

Times have changed but the reality of the child star/actor/model has not. Hamsika who caught the attention of filmmakers with her brilliant performances in television serials and films, was pushed into adulthood as leading lady opposite Himesh Reshamiya in Aap Ka Suroor
No teenage crushes, no disco-hopping or party-dancing, no playing loud music at odd hours, no boyfriend because the word ‘adolescence’ does not exist in the book of her life. Whether she will make it as leading lady is beside the point. The point is that she has missed out on a solid education, on friendships, on dating and split-ups - things that form the journey from teenage to adulthood. In the past, child actors were browbeaten and persecuted by their parents and families. Today, it is the same story with the media adding to the treachery by ensuring that child actors like Darsheel are martyred for a cause that does not exist - media-hype at the wrong time and place that could destroy their lives and careers everlastingly.

Monday, May 19, 2008

I must have cried a million tears,
Since we've been apart.
That must be the reason why,
I've got tear stains on my heart.
I pray someday you'll understand,
And maybe take me back.
Without your love to keep me straight,
I'm a train without a track.
I Love You so much it hurts inside.
I need your guiding hand.
I'm like a sandman trying to work,
Without a grain of sand.
I'm a wandering spirit in the mist,
I'm neither here nor there.
My heart is cold and empty like,
A den without a bear.
If I were a mighty buck,
You'd be my only doe.
But now I'm like a single arrow,
Lost without a bow.
Someday I'm sure I'll get over you,
And I'll have a brand new start.
But I know that time will never wash,
The tear stains from my heart.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Will miss u all.................

Moving on and meeting new people

Seems like the most interesting thing

New buddies, new pals

A whole new world to explore
At first, tears never came and overflowed

All there was excitement

Laughter, amazement and gladness

For the final year in college was about to be uncovered
But during the last days,

things changed.

Memories and good times of the past shone,

Clouded our minds as we thought of leaving

While all the emotions altogether brewed.
All of a sudden, tear-floods overflowed, unmanageable.

Rivers of crystalline tears mixed with sobs,

Reminiscing the past seemed to be hard.

To grasp the thought was unbearable.
"Why do I cry?", I asked.

I always wanted to leave, didn't I?

"Can't wait to get out of here"

were my initial words

But why and why now are my questions.
Sadness creeps in and heart full of sorrow

As I sat with clouded eyes, still crying.

Nothing will be lost, I thought.

All's well. I'll look forward to tomorrow.
All of these are foolish things to say.

Foolish...fooling myself is what I'm doing.

All the friends and teachers that I've known

Cannot be replaced in any way.
Sure, new experiences will come.

But will these outshine the old ones?

Love and understanding have grown for two years.

Hard to comprehend why it's all ending.
Life goes on, they say.

But now all I want is life to be as it is.

Joy fills my heart in this place.

Nothing more to ask for, I prayed. goodbye

In these last few days of woe and sorrow.

Tears mixed with laughter echoes in the halls

As the cover closes in the final days of this chapter.


It's hard to believe

it's time to go

Leave this way of life,

spread our wings and grow

Say goodbye to those friends

that we hold dear to our hearts

Shedding tears for we'll be so far apart

Remembering all the good times

and even the bad

Including the fights we sometimes had

Through the tears and the pain

Friendship was our gain

We stuck together through sunshine and rain,

laughs and shouts

We found out what true friends

were all about

So as our final year comes to an end

We'll carry in our hearts our special friends

And take with us all the memories

that were made

Since that very first NIPER day

कोशिश करने वालों की (स्व. हरिवश राय बच्चन द्वारा )

लहरों से डर कर नौका पार नहीं होती

कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती।
नन्हीं चींटी जब दाना लेकर चलती है

चढ़ती दीवारों पर सौ बार फिसलती है।

मन का विश्वास रगों में साहस भरता है

चढ़कर गिरना, गिरकर चढ़ना न अखरता है।

आख़िर उसकी मेहनत बेकार नहीं होती

कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती।
डुबकियां सिंधु में गोताखोर लगाता है

जा जा कर खाली हाथ लौटकर आता है।

मिलते नहीं सहज ही मोती गहरे पानी में

बढ़ता दुगना उत्साह इसी हैरानी में।

मुट्ठी उसकी खाली हर बार नहीं होती

कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती।
असफलता एक चुनौती है

इसे स्वीकार करो

क्या कमी रह गई, देखो और सुधार करो।

जब तक न सफल हो

नींद चैन को त्यागो तुम

संघर्ष का मैदान छोड़ कर मत भागो तुम।

कुछ किये बिना ही जय जय कार नहीं होती

कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती।


ये दोस्ती का आशियाना

ये अपनेपन की लहरें

ज़िंदगी मे ऐसे चमन

रोज़ तो मिलते नहीं

हो जाती है यादें

सीने मे दफ़न

गए वक्त की तरह

लोग फिर मिलते नही

टुकड़े-टुकड़े दिन बीता (स्व. मीना कुमारी द्वारा)

टुकड़े-टुकड़े दिन बीता

धज्जी-धज्जी रात मिली
जितना-जितना आँचल था

उतनी ही सौगात मिली
रिमझिम-रिमझिम बूँदों में

ज़हर भी है और अमृत भी
आँखें हँस दीं दिल रोया

यह अच्छी बरसात मिली
जब चाहा दिल को समझें

हँसने की आवाज सुनी
जैसे कोई कहता हो

ले फिर तुझको मात मिली
मातें कैसी घातें क्या

चलते रहना आठ पहर
दिल-सा साथी जब पाया

बेचैनी भी साथ मिली
होंठों तक आते आते

जाने कितने रूप भरे
जलती-बुझती आँखों में

सादा सी जो बात मिली

मैं हूँ

मैं हूँ तट की रेत मीत रे

तू नदिया की चंचल धारा

रहा समीप युगों से तेरे
फिर भी प्यासा हृदय हमारा

कितना मैं लाचार रहा हूँ

तुमको अब तक ना छू पाया

तू सूर्य की किरण सुनहरी

मैं संध्या की काली छाया

मैं हूँ तट की रेत मीत रे
तू नदिया की चंचल धारा

Monday, May 5, 2008

Memories are heartbeats

Sounding through the years

Echoes never fading

Of our smiles and our tears.

Moments that are captured

Sometimes unawarePictured in an album

Or a lock of hair.
Images that lingerDeep within the mind

Bit of verse we cherished

Once upon a time.

Through the musty hallways

Of the days we knew

Ever comes the visionBeautiful and true.
Memories are roses

Blooming evermore

Full of fragrant sweetness

Never known before.

Life must have a meaning

Goals for which to strive

Memories are lights that burn

To keep the heart alive.

Get up

Get Up

Other worlds exist above our heads,

below our feet,

and right inside our palms.
Sometimes these worlds erupt their boundaries,

cross the lines that divide.

After all,

they are as thin as cellophane and more permeable.
What separates us from them grows less permanent,

more fragile as something beckons,

something calls,

hovers like a relentless hummingbird with wings droning in the ear,

stirring memory.

Will you hear the call and pick up your drum,

or will you settle back into the easy chair of your old life,

content just looking out the window?
Get up and walk outside into the grass.

Leave behind the porch of this life,

the house of the ego.

Call to the spirits;

call loudly from your heart.

Sing out your soul's song,

which thrashes against your ribcage for release.
There is bliss, there with the spirits,

free from the body and from this earthly pain. T

here is perennial compassion in the redtail's wings

or the wolf's howl

and with this you can return

to the world heart spun open,

hands outstretched bathing those who suffer in light.
This is your birthright from the beginning.

Claim it.

Get up.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Nagarjuna Sagar Dam is one of the largest dams built in Asia, located between the cities of Guntur and Hyderabad in AP (India). It is built on the Krishna river between Guntur and Nalgonda. It is one of the earliest hydroelectric of India.
Nagarjuna dam, which was completed in 1969 is 124 metres high and 1 km long, and has 26 crest gates. The lake behind it is the third-largest man-made lake in the world. This dam is said to be the World's largest masonry dam.
Of late, the inflows into the reservoir have been reduced due to the increased number of projects which have been built upstream.
Located at a distance of 150 km from Hyderabad, Nagarjunasagar is an important irrigation dam on river Krishna. This is the tallest and biggest masonry dam in the world and is about 150 Km away from the metropolitan city of Hyderabad. It creates the third largest man-made lake in the world. Apart from this, some remains of the Buddhist civilization dating back to the 3rd century A.D, are seen on an island called Nagarjunakonda located in a man-made lake on the other side of the river Krishna. These relics of Buddhist civlization found during excavation unveiled the traces of Mahachaitya, the most sacred of the stupas. An inscription in Brahmi characters states that the sacred relics of Lord Buddha lie within the Mahachaitya.
Nagarjuna sagar Dam: There would be very few modern constructions you will come across
that bring to mind such a rejoinder. A feeling of awe and significance overcomes you when you lay eyes upon the Nagarjuna Sagar Dam for the first time. Its sheer size and magnitude leaves you breathless and astounded. As the tallest and largest masonry dam in the world, really stands as one of the conjecture of engineering excellence. Stretching across the mighty river Krishna, the barrage also has another distinction to its credit - it has created one of the world's largest man-made lake! The reservoir is a vital source of irrigation for vast tracts of the surroundings region. The two left and right canals, called Bahadur Canal and Jawahar canal respectively, cater to the watering needs of a very large area of the state. Successfully transforming a barren, thirsty land into a lush verdant landscape with acres and acres of green fields swaying in the breeze as far as the eye can see. Naturally, it has played a leading role in helping the state of Andhra Pradesh emerge as' the Rice Bowl of India'. Significantly, the creation of this lake has submerged the excavations that were carried out here in 1926 which unearthed three historical sites- Dhanyakataka, capital of the Satavahanas; Sriparvata, Vijayapuri, capital of the Ikshvakus and a Buddist civilization that thrived here in the third and fourth centuries B.C. What is of special interest to historians is the fact that the excavations also revealed the existence of Brahmanical temples here which indicates that Hinduism and Buddhism flourished together in peaceful co-existence. All the archeological findings and relics have been removed from here and carefully preserved on an island in the middle of the lake - Nagarjunakonda.
Nagarjunakonda: was one of the largest and most important Buddhist centres in South India from the second century BC until the third century AD. It was named after Acharya Nagarjuna, a renowed Buddhist scholar and philosopher, who had migrated here from Amarvati to propagate and spread the Buddha's message of universal peace and brotherhood. The founder of Mahayana Buddhism, this revered monk governed the sangha for almost 60 years and the Madhyamika school be established attracted students from far and wide including Sri Lanka and China. As the site, excavations have unearthed a university, monastries, aswamedha altar, royal baths, advanced drainage system, viharas, chaityas, mandapams the life and times of the Buddha. Of special significance is the finding of nine stupa- like structures arranged in a wheel shaped formation which includes the Mahachaitya, the most sacred of them all. The Brahmi characters inscribed on it reveal that the remains of Lord Buddha are preserved within it.
With the construction of the Nagarjunasagar dam and the subsequent flooding of this site by the rising water, all the priceless finds have been shifted to an island in the middle of the lake. The ruins were transported and reconstructed at the unique island museum, in the form of an ancient Buddhist Vihara. So that visitors can get a glimpse of a great chapter in Indian history and see for themselves a rich culture that has successfully survived through the centuries. Along with these, the museum also houses invaluable relics such as stone tools and weapons from the Paleolthic and Neolithic ages, which were found at the same site.The mammoth task undertaken to shift the archeological treasures and preserve them at another location is reminiscent of the famous Abu Simbel operation carried out in Egypt.
Anupa: A short distance away at Anupa, the Bhuddist University and Stadium, which were excavated at Nagarjunasagar, has been reconstructed. The stadium boasts of the most amazing acoustics that are truly remarkable considering the time and age when it was built. a place that qualifies as a 'must-see' for everybody interested in history, culture and architecture.

Ethipothala Waterfalls
: just about 11 kms from the Nagarjunasagar Dam are the Ethipothala Waterfalls on the Chadravanka river, a tributary of the Krishna. In absolutely scenic surroundings, you can marvel at the shimmering water as it cascades down 70 feet into a lagoon. The picture postcard beauty of the place with verdant valleys together with numerous cave temples that dot the hilly countryside, have made this a favorite picnic spot of visitors.While at Ethipothala, another place well worth a visit is the crocodile breeding centre. Here you can safely see these reptiles from close quarters and observe their fascinating habits.


Shilparamam, a crafts village, conceived in the year 1992, is situated just about few kilometers from Hyderabad city. Sprawling over 65 acres of land in the hi-tech hub city of India, Shilparamam gives a scenic ambience of tradition and cultural heritage. For promotion and preservation of Indian arts and crafts and to motivate the artisans, the state government established this platform. Enchanting the blend of arts and artifact, epitomizing the true legacy with the dsiverse natural beauty of rural India; Shilparamam is tribute to Andhra Pradesh. Exhibiting the rustic richness and creativity of Hyderabad, it has captivated the imagination of visitors.The lush and serene environment of Shilparamam is sculpted with woodwork, jewellry, cloths and local crafts of each region of the country. Showcasing a plethora of artistic ethos, Shilparamam is set amidst gardens, cascading waterfalls and natural rock heights.

Rural Museum – Nestling amidst the trees the archetype rural museum has more than 15 life-size huts, built out of thatch and baked clay. Giving a true feel of tribal lifestyles and their occupations, the museum provides an insight of the villagers. City people are fascinated with the villages and the way of living; and hence, it is indeed one of the major attractions for urban dwellers. The rural museum depicts the rural lifestyle involving their attire, food habits and day-to-day works. It has life size imitations of the entire rural culture.

Amphitheatre – Feel the mystical surrounding and the perfect ambience of Amphitheatre. Enjoy the live performing arts and talents of varied cultures to exuberate. During weekends and fests, a variety of folk dance, classical music and other traditional performances are conducted to entertain the visitors. More than 1000 people can accommodate and relax to enjoy plays and acts performed by artists from across the nation. Amphitheatre fosters to state level arts like Andhra Natyam, Yakshagana and all traditional arts.

Grameena (Ethnic Food Court) – Sensitize your appetizers with the aroma scrumptious food. Get the real taste of Indian cuisines and delicacies with an ethnic touch at Grameena. The vegetarian food court that takes you closer to Mother Nature as, the ambience spreads the fragrance of earthenware. Get the unique culinary experience of the most exotic Indian cuisines. The fine dining, excellent services and added flavours would tickle your taste buds.The environment is embellished with all the traditional settings giving the best hospitality you can ever experience. Indian’s are gourmet and Grameena is the place to enjoy all the varieties of food.

Prakruti Raga – The living rock gallery that brings to the fore the artist in nature. The magnetising rocks at Prakruti Raga depict power and peace. It rejuvenates and generates a positive energy. The naturally formed rocks are in various shapes, each resembling a defined figure. The mighty rocks are carved by nature and hence, attract the visitors. The charismatic ambience inspires the people and is indeed a beautiful place to spend time. The rocks are skirted by lush green landscapes making you completely spellbound